{"id":19888,"date":"2022-12-31T17:51:14","date_gmt":"2022-12-31T06:51:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.anneskyvington.com.au\/?p=19888"},"modified":"2024-03-09T09:29:29","modified_gmt":"2024-03-08T22:29:29","slug":"how-i-overcame-chronic-depression","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.anneskyvington.com.au\/how-i-overcame-chronic-depression\/","title":{"rendered":"How I Overcame Chronic Depression"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
I was in my early thirties when I first started looking inward, which I conceived as a descent into the unconscious mind, as popularized by Sigmund Freud<\/a> and his form of psychoanalysis<\/a>. Later on, I discovered Carl Jung<\/a>\u2019s complex writings on the unconscious mind. I believe that he became the benchmark by which all future therapists would be judged. Certainly in terms of his understanding of the difficult notion of transference.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It wasn\u2019t a choice for me, as much as a compulsion to go deep. I was suffering from crippling emotional problems and needed to change. Could I have done it differently? Yes, of course, but perhaps not as completely and in depth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Jung utilized the word \u201cpsyche\u201d, (\u201cthe human soul, mind, or spirit\u201d according to online dictionaries), which for him referred to the totality of a person\u2019s mind \u2014 the conscious, unconscious and collective unconscious aspects.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Jung writes: \u2018By psyche I understand the totality of all psychic processes, conscious as well as unconscious\u201d, (CW6 para 797) so we use the term \u201cpsyche\u201d rather than \u201cmind\u201d, since mind is used in common parlance to refer to the aspects of mental functioning which are conscious.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n Jung maintained that the psyche is a self-regulating system (like the body).<\/p>\n\n\n\n My hunger for change occurred in the mid-seventies, in the year leading up to my father\u2019s death from stress. I was married, and working full-time to support myself and my husband, who was enrolled at university. We had plans to start a family, once my husband, who was younger than me, was qualified and in gainful employment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I had been suffering from long-term chronic depression. Being an intuitive person, I sensed that my problems were a result of childhood trauma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I wanted to become stronger, in order to benefit my role as a teacher, to help my partner, and to better support my prospective offspring. I wished to throw off useless feelings left over from the past, especially lack of self esteem, and I longed to find my true voice. My particular brand of melancholy was bound up in all of these negative issues and feelings.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I engaged a Gestalt therapist on the recommendation from an actor friend of my husband\u2019s. The therapist, Sarah, utilized a holistic approach, focused particularly on Fritz Perls<\/a>\u2019 post-Freudian type of psychology, specifically utilizing Gestalt Therapy<\/a>. This suited me well, since I had always been drawn to and loved the idea of \u201cwholeness\u201d (the German Gestalt)<\/p>\n\n\n\n Gestalt Principles are principles\/laws of human perception that describe how humans group similar elements, recognize patterns and simplify complex images when we perceive objects. Designers use the principles to organize content on websites and other interfaces so it is aesthetically pleasing and easy to understand. https:\/\/www.interaction-design.org\/literature\/topics\/gestalt-principles<\/a>.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n Sarah introduced me to the Gestalt Prayer invented by Fritz Perls:<\/p>\n\n\n\n I do my thing and you do your thing. This made a lot of sense to me at the time, as I was struggling with trying to make friends and carrying a heavy sense of rejection.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Sarah interpreted the Gestalt in her method of treatment as working on the whole person. Again, this suited me to perfection. She was a gifted talk therapist and dream analyst, she encouraged my love of writing and sent me off to body therapists and even to sex therapists and astrologists. I loved it all, relished it and found myself making huge strides quite quickly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Therapy brought me face to face with the unconscious mind and with dreams. Most of the dreams were to do with parts of myself that needed integrating:worker, wife, mother, friend, lover. Some dreams were luminous and one or two were prophetic<\/a>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
\n
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I,
and if by chance we find each other, it\u2019s beautiful.
If not, it can\u2019t be helped. \u2014 Fritz Perls, 1969<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n